Not Wright, but grandma

Why is it that Oboma saves his preacher but throws grandma under the bus. He confessed grandmas feelings but he didn't share his own feelings. "but a woman who once confessed her fear of black men who passed by her on the street, and who on more than one occasion has uttered racial or ethnic stereotypes that made me cringe." He does not tell his own feelings, he tells his grandmothers. I want to know how HE FEELS. Not his grandmother, not how the country should be one. I want to know how he feels.